I have been chatting to Ben on MSN, and he has allowed me to see that a lot of my behaviour towards a certain person on this board has been nothing short of disgraceful. I am expecting backlash for this, probably because for my doing a U-Turn on my actions and also because I have been, to put simply 'an asshole of the highest calibre'.
The person I am talking about is our very own James P, that certain member of the forums who since his introduction here has been the result of many memes, but ultimately a lot of poor and disgusting treatment, which has gotten to a point now which i think is unacceptable. The irony of posting this is not lost on me, I've been at the forefront of most of the bullying, and upon reflection I am filled with my own disgust and sadness at what I have said. These forums is heavily influenced by Doctor Who but I feel that a certain few of us, myself included, have been acting very un-doctor-ly.
I'm admitting to my own failings right here. I also remember when RV and me got into a spat over the nature of my own posting, I tried to learn form what was said and to become a better member of the forums. I should have realized this much earlier, but when James was reacting to what was said about him, I could see me in those posts. I forgot until now, when ben reminded me, that I would never and tolerated such things aimed at me I am aware he has not learned from what we tried to advise him on earlier, which resulted in the poor treatment aimed right at him. However there is a line, we crossed that ages ago. Since when did we tolerate threads being made for the purpose of taking the piss out of a member, when did we start allowing ourselves to be swept up in cyber-bullying? Have we forgotten what happened when Daryl came on, and the treatment we got from him and his friends, whos to say we are any better now, myself included.
I regret now, and quite badly that I have allowed myself to be the person who was firing off insults to him, and that It took until now for me to open my eyes again. I saw that Ben was not posting as he was ashamed to post on the board, and I saw Ronnie standing up for him in the 101 reasons topic quite witty-wise, and other members have tried to stick up for him. I am going to be in trouble for what I have done, and what I post here now, but that will be the weight of my own actions bearing down on me, and I am ready to accept what I have done.
When did the forums turn from a haven for all of us, a place where we could come and be ourselves without any problems, to a breeding ground for people to fight off anyone with deadly force who does not fit the type expected of a typical DSF member? have we really fallen this far? I know I have. We have become something we never wanted to go near, we have started to go down a place we all wanted to avoid. I won't point fingers at anyone, because I am one of those people who has behaved in a disgraceful and disgusting manner.this place was supposed to be a haven for the outcasts in society, but our secret society has now become the idiots that pick on everyone else.
You can say what you want about what I have posted about, but here is one member who's turning around, seen the light, seen the magnitude of his actions, and is realizing what he has done, and wants to put a stop to this course of action, to say 'No More' I don't expect instant forgiveness or absolution, but we all need to see what we have done. james made the effort, as was said before; "He wrote those scripts because thats all he got back." he joined a place because he loved Doctor Who, and we forced him out because he was just himself. I won't soon forget what I did, This is not the DSF I know and love, and I hope we all see what we did wrong, so we can have it back.